27/10/2013

today is a rainy sunday
i decided to stay at home to do my revision
i feel scare of what's happened at the park on friday
pie pie got attack from 3 black dogs
i really do scare and i don't dare to bring pie out anymore
san decide to bring pie out
suddenly i heard san screaming loudly
and the front gates opened
she's frighten and ask me to bring pie to the hospital
i'm shock and ask her about the reason
she said pie pie got attack and bitten by a large dog
pie pie is bleeding and he feel painful
he wont let anyone of us to touch him
i try our best to pursue him to get into san's hug
i called the evil and she's so happy of it
FUCK!
i then feel to ignored her and try to bring pie to the hospital
finally pie seems like understood what we want to do
he slowly walk to my car and try to climb up
but his pain and wound doesn't allow
san try to bring him into my car
after a while that evil arrived
damn! the first phrase came out from her ass is
"is he dead?"
i really do feel to slap her ass out
then doc said that pie's breast bone has broken
the wound is very deep
we must take good care of him in this few days
we brought him home and take care of him


pie... may god bless u. i wish u to get well soon.
i love u pie <3

26/10/2013

today is my friend- Siravidh
and my dad's birthday
i almost forget until hong dong ask me about the plan
the black forest cake is so yummy
and we celebrate my dad's birthday at the night
daddy brought us to jj kimbab
later we watch incidious 2
oh god!
it scares my shit out!
damn it! so fking scary.
but i'd like that movie.
i'd enjoy the night.

My current feeling

no one knows how much pain u went through
no one knows how much hard work u paid off
no one knows how much tears u drops in the midnight
no one knows how much things u have done
no one knows how important u are
no one knows how many stress and sorrow u been through
no one knows that something will never success without u
no one ever see ur tears and pain beneath ur smiles
no one ever look into urself
no one care ever of u
no one sympathy at u
no one ever assist u
i wonder.............

what's going to happen if I disappear suddenly?
how they will react after my disappearance?
will they even notice the importance of my presence?





i wonder.......................................... when can i leave this hell and live a better life for next or................
rest peacely at somewhere else......................... maybe............... :)

14/10/2013

it is a holiday after the graduation night
quite bored though
i stay at home doing nothing but watching tv
i had watch about 3-4 movies and dramas today
i brought my sister to take breakfast at Sin Chiew
it is very happy until my mom is back
she ruin my whole day mood
i tried my best the chopped the bones for soup tonight
but when she came back
she says nothing but began to scold me
what in the world
i dont even know what's happening
she scolded me madly
oh please
it is our holiday
cant i take a break?
u dont know how much i struggle in my school life
u dont know how hard i struggle to understand all the syllabus
u dont know how exhausted i am when i finish every house chores
u don tknow how tired i am when it comes to thursday
i finished tuition at 7.10pm
begins to fetch my brother and sister to rush for their tuition
until 9pm
then i can sit down and take my dinner
but did u know how tired i am?
did u even realize the sorrow behind my smile ?
have u even care of what i do?
do u know a thing about me?
i do really wish that u can noticed my presence is important
i am so independent since young
i'd walked to tuition everyday no matter how bad the weather is
i'd rush to the mini market to get all the stuff and ingredient u want
i'd rush to the tuition to accompany my sister to walk back home
i'd rush back from a very distant tuition centre to home
i'd rush cooking dinner for my everyone when u fal sick
i'd do everything u want
i just want to hear a thing from u
"my dear girl,thank you and i appreciate what u've done"
but did u even notice my tears or my sweat?
i wonder do u even love me as one of ur child?

11/10/2013

i like to be with hui bing
unlike abby and ker shin
they likes to bend whatever idea i gave
for example on the graduation night
ker shin almost shouted at me
just because i wants to inform her what i’ve plan
i thought hui bing asked me to plan everything earlier
and i did it well
i just dont understand why she has to do so
besides
i have enough voucher for everyone in the hall
i dont know why she insists to pack just some in the doorgift
it is more than enough though
and abby
why in the world she vonluteers to become one of the mc
she has no gut to go onto the stage
instead she’s not the best mc at all
but she keeps on acting like she’s the boss]
oh come’on
a mc who dont even dare to go onto the stage
but keep showing that face
what the hell is that
and i ask u to gift the speech nicely with some elaboration
or maybe a little jokes added
but u keep mentioned that time is not sufficient
what’s the point
everyone will feel offended or even bored to hear that though
hui bing is the only one who can really cooperate with me
she’d support every single decision i made
since she’s the one who distribute all the works
why cant u all cooperate well
and my idea is not stupid at all
my every idea works well thought
so next time can u please listen to my advice
it’s not a one man show please